Well, I can't say that we were this unshakable power-couple before we had sex. We've only been dating for three months or so and I stupidly gave it up three weeks in. Before we..began to explore eachother, he was the most adorable thing I'd ever seen. We spent basically every day together in the beginning. At first I was skeptical, distant and unwilling to really expose myself to him. He's the kind of guy who could really have anyone he wanted at the drop of a hat. He's gorgeous, charismatic, everyone seems to love him.. just my ideal guy. It sucks, though. When we're hanging out with his roommates or out on a date, it's like he's..ugh so cuuute when he'll do just stupid sweet things for me or say something funny or make a certain face. Ugh. And I like when girls look at him just to straight up stinkface those hoes (it's become somewhat of a hobby). I just want to kiss him every second. HOWEVER, when we're alone and there's no audience, he's turns into sexaholic freakaleak god knows what! Always wanting to try crazy ass things, doing disgusting things.. Blah. It makes me sick because while he's bustin' out all the freaky porn flick crap, I am NOT feeling the intimacy. It's not even there. I feel like his whore who he feels he can just desecrate and degrade. Should I just accept that my boy's a sex freak or what? I don't know. I like him, but he likes to do some pretty weird things. I'm just in awe at who he can be with me in public and behind closed doors. It's terrifying!